Puppy Love...

The sweetest little girl and the sweetest little chow chow in my world.  There is nothing like the love we have for our chow chows.

Tooo tired to write much more.  Day of cleaning and organizing tomorrow.  I hope. Even the best laid plans... The kids only have one more week of school and then all hell breaks loose around here.  I need to find some serious organization before that happens. 

Post to come on the Bullying drama...

Tired Mom

My Youngest Baby is Growing Up...

She is growing and changing so quickly that I forget to stop and soak it all in.  Ahhhhh... This is where blogging...writing...photography..finding balance after my entrance into the work force seems to have struck me with the difficulty.  STOP and hug my kids, hear what they have to say, kiss them, find out what they enjoyed about their day and what the worst part was.  I need to keep that part of my world up to date so I can keep up with my kids.  This little person in this picture is so precious to me and she can get lost in the shuffle of having a teenage brother and a pre teen sister with epilepsy.  She is the most fabulous 6 year old in my whole world and she is sooooo darn sweet too.  Graduating Grade 1.

Mommy's sweet baby...

Bullies part 2

Bullies exposed.  The preteen has finally had enough I guess.  She and her sister got a mommy imposed mental health day home from school yesterday to escape it all.  My youngest was crying about EVERYTHING under the roof.  The kids at school were playing my girls against eachother being nice to the little one and not the pre teen.  It was not good for either of them.  My pre teen waited all year to sing in a talent show in front of the whole school but pulled out of the group because she couldn't handle the abuse.  She commented to one of them and was told "I didn't know animals could talk".  Another time she was told "I don't know how you ever fit into those jeans."  Called a Hippopotomus over and over again... so enough was enough.

Siezures seemed to be coming every other night from the stress of it all.  So THEN one of the little girls who has noticed from the side lines all of this happening had said ENOUGH is ENOUGH and then she marched the Pre Teen straight to the principal's office to tell her.  The principal has interviewed all of the girls involved.  It's interesting though.  She behaves as this is just life and so what and it cannot be controlled because the other girls all tell different stories.  Hmmm how about the other kids on the school grounds that have witnessed this and rallied around my kid to tell her to go to the principal.  These kids have a history.  OOooooo my kid swore at them in defence.  Tell me what she should have DONE!....  Anti bullying pink shirt day my ASS. Full of crap.  I am thinking of moving may little peanut to the other school down the road from us in the other direction.  I am just so frusterated.

Now pre teen is supposed to go and sit at the middle school with all the girls who abused her to talk about bullying and she does not want to.  WHY SHOULD SHE?  She's still scared of them.

She's not even going to go to that school anyhow.  Because of them.

Bullying!

I am unsure what to feel right now. My daughters are being bullied. Foremost my 11 year old treasure of a gorgeous girl is being bullied and I am sad, angry and just plain horrified. WHY!?!

She has gone to this school as the new kid this year and epilepsy be dammed she was confident, intelligent, beautiful, head held high, and had new best friends within the first week. The teacher commented to me that she found my pre teen to be the first of her kind to come in so flawlessly and fit in so quickly with ease. Within the first couple of months the pre teen sang her heart out (a taylor swift song) while her good friend played the guitar. The kids in the class were all impressed.

EXCEPT ONE OR TWO IN THE NEXT CLASSROOM OVER!!! I guess there is a little friend in the next classroom that was NOT happy about the pre teens entrance into the last year in elementary school before middle school. You see, the kids here go grade K-5 in elementary and then off to 6-8 in middle school then 9-12 in high school. Grade 5 is the big kahuna year in the little elementary peeps land. Well pre teen hit it off immediately with Little S who is this adorable girl who sings her heart out to whoever will listen too. Little S and Pre teen are very much alike and then on meet the teacher night at the beginning of the year they found out THEIR. DADS. WORKED. TOGETHER. in some capacity. How cool is that to the pre teen and little S. This just solidified that they were meant to be friends. Play dates, birthday parties, sleepovers, on and on. ALL while there was this other little girl we'll call Left Out Lucy. Well Left Out Lucy lived a couple of doors down from LittleS. They still saw each other all the time but Left Out Lucy had nothing nice to say about the Pre Teen. I never found out till now because the Pre Teen always ignored it and never said anything. Which is fine and appropriate behavior for that level.

TILL.... Left Out Lucy moved away from the neighborhood Little S lived in and OUCH that probably sucked for her. She has no idea that Pre Teen could probably identify with how that feels if she stopped and gave Pre Teen a chance. The Pre Teen would forgive anyone of anything...... BUT it escalated much much more.

The preteen reacts with STOP IT, SHUT UP, LEAVE ME ALONE, GET LOST, she has tried returning the innuendos but she tells me that the Left Out Lucy has a really sharp tongue and no matter how you try to argue or stand up to her she has something meaner and nastier to say back to her.

How many people can we get on the band wagon to go against the preteen. Facebook innuendos began. OMG you are at HER house, how FUN, (insert sarcasm here). Then in the halls at school "Look it's the village bicycle!" (by the way preteen hasn't even kissed a boy, I don't know why I feel the need to say that.) Hey Pre Teen I think you should lay off the pudding cups. On and on and on.

Whenever this Left Out Lucy is hanging with any mutual friends of the Pre Teen's they say nothing. They will call Pre Teen later and say sorry and pre teen believes them. She will forgive anyone. She just wants everyone to be friends.

Preteen is scared to death that I am going to tell the teacher and that it will get worse. She is terrified to be called a rat and the bullying to get worse. It is the end of the year and this child may or may not show up at her middle school to take revenge and my child is horrified. I don't know what to do. I have told preteen that this is victim behavior. Have you ever seen the American Girl (Chrissa Stands Strong). My kid is the victim...
I am lost and don't know what to do. Pre teen has enough to deal with. The seizures seem to be every other night right now.

Taking the bull by the horns...

I work at a physicians office.  I am the girl who does everything he needs, might need, or wants done when it comes to medical information and processing it.  Sooooo I called Children's Hospital and got my child's MRI results because they were not going to jump out and tell me themselves.  It was NORMAL!!!!!  I am over the moon that that hurdle is crossed off and we have this landmark of sorts to say my darling fashion diva has a normal MRI.  Each of my 3 kids are everything to me. normal normal NORMAL!!!!!  Load of stress has now been lifted from this ladies lap.

BUT we have had another siezure last week.  The next day she started coughing.  Illness makes her have them.  I don't know the spread of them when looking at a pattern but the nurse at Children's yesterday can see a pattern and we are going to increase her tegratol again.  It was to that level before and she did fabulous.  I think it was 400 mg twice per day and she was wonderful.  No meltdowns.  BUT I accidently increased it too quickly and after a wonderous 3 weeks we reduced it and had some bloodwork done so we could make sure she wasn't toxic.  She wasn't.  But we have been slowly working our way back up ever since.  She rages like a horror film.  Not fun for us.

Homework time this morning.  Good times.
I MISS being a stay at home mom.